A New Start

According to the "rules" at Fabulous N Fit by Fall, I'm supposed to take a photo of my scale. So here you go...



There you go. There's that TWO number again. How depressing. But I'm going to change that - starting today.

I Can Do Better

I completely failed at the 4th of July challenge. Completely failed. I weigh more than I did when I started the challenge. I have not had a productive couple of months. I had hoped to be down quite a bit and instead, I weigh what I did seven months ago. I have to admit to myself that I've gained 10 pounds back from my lowest weight (which was at the beginning of March).

I do believe, however, that I am ready to start again. I have been exercising at a semi-regular basis, but my eating has been in the toilet. I have been craving the most horrible foods and to make matters worse, I have been satisfying those cravings. I know that I need to step it up with my exercising and be better with my eating. I found a new challenge, Fabulous N Fit by Fall. I really hope to succeed at this one.

A Small Pity Party

I got on the scale this morning and saw a number I haven't seen since December... SEVEN months ago. I feel like a huge failure - one that has wasted all this time doing nothing... again. All that holiday partying over the weekend certainly caught up to me. The good news is that instead of heading to the refrigerator, I went out back and walked a mile on the track.

What a weekend

Two parties, lots of fireworks and an endless supply of food and beer. I'm feeling like I need to eat salad and drink water all this week.

My eating has been in the can, but I have been exercising a bit. I'm hoping to get out this evening for a quick walk. There is a school right behind my house so I can always go walk around the track, which is my plan today.

I have been enjoying Sparkpeople. But like WW, I need to be sure to track and I have a problem with that. But at least it's free.

Have you visited The Belly Project? Many of us women are a bit consumed with what people look like under their clothes. The summer leaves far less to the imagination. And here, you can see that you aren't the only one that does not have a perfect mid-section!

Hello Sparkpeople

We all know that the economy is horrible right now. My husband and I are trying hard to watch every penny... especially since we just had to buy a new to us car, which results in a car payment. Because of this, I've decided to give up Weight Watchers. It hasn't really been working for me for the past few months. Which really means, I haven't really been MAKING it work for me. I haven't been keeping track of my points. I feel like I've been flushing the money I've been spending on it down the toilet.

I've decided to try something that is free... sparkpeople.com. I'm hoping it will help me jump start my diet again. I've kept track of my eating for the past two days and have also exercised.

Do you - or have you ever - used sparkpeople? Does it work for you?

All the Chocolate has been Eaten

I'm pretty sure I've eaten all the chocolate in my house. So now it's gone and won't be replaced. My cravings were horrible yesterday. Why can't I have cravings for apples and peaches? Not me... chocolate was all I wanted. And then I felt awful after it was all gone in my belly.

This was not a good eating weekend. We had three parties to go to. Lots of drinking and eating not so good for you foods. I tried to control myself - at least I drank a lot less than I thought I would.

Class reunion is less than five weeks away. I'm not nearly the weight I hoped I would be, but at least I'm not near where I started. And really... who cares. No one is going to not talk to me because I don't look like I did in high school. Most likely, no one will look like they did in high school. I've become reacquainted with a girl I graduated with that lives in my neighborhood. She doesn't seem to care that I'm a bigger girl. In fact, she actually seems to like me and is glad to see me when she does. Two of my bestest girlfriends are coming in and staying at my house - I should probably focus more on cleaning my house and making sure they are comfortable! But... I think I can lose 10 pounds in the next five weeks, so that's what I'm going to focus on.

197???

It's catching up to me. I have not been good about my eating or exercise for the past couple of MONTHS (ugh!) and thus far, I'd been doing okay. Up and down a couple of pounds. But when I got on the scale on Tuesday it showed 197. 197! That's only three pounds from 200 again! And I will not go back to that. So I've been very careful about my eating this week and have been exercising. Bootcamp on Tuesday (which I'm still sore from) and treadmill today. I'm also going to check out a different bootcamp tomorrow. It's closer to my house and a little cheaper, which is always good.

What happened to me losing 20 more pounds before my reunion in July? Now I'm seven weeks away. I guess it's possible for me to lose 20 pounds by then... but probably not probable.

Not as sore as I thought I'd be

I woke up this morning and discovered that I wasn't nearly as sore as I thought I'd be. I'm sore, that's for sure... but not sore enough not to try boot camp again. So I'll be going again on Tuesday.

A friend also told me about another boot camp that's much closer to where I live. I may go check it out next week when I'm kid-free. It's also a bit cheaper, which is always good.

Trying Something New

I am still struggling with my eating... coming to the conclusion that I may ALWAYS struggle with my eating. Perhaps I need to focus more on exercising, which is something I haven't been doing very well on either. So today I went to a boot camp. It kicked my butt.. but I liked it. And I could bring my 4 year old with me, which was a plus. The workout was about an hour, which is more than I've exercised at one time in a very long while. I'm already a little sore, but that's to be expected. It was definitely an all over workout, meaning my entire body is going to be hurting tomorrow. I get to try three workouts for free, so I'm going to go back next week. And my 4 year old will be in camp, so I'll get to do it child-free.

I ended up having the endoscope last week. My doctor said that she didn't find anything. She is recommending I have my gall bladder out. That is most likely what is causing the pain in my right side. I have a follow-up appointment in a couple of weeks to discuss it further.

What is it going to take to get out of this holding pattern?

I seem to be stuck. I haven't lost weight - about 2 months or so. Actually, I've gained back about 3 pounds. I have not tracked my points in weeks. Basically, I'm wasting my money by paying for my Weight Watchers online membership.

On a positive note... I've lost about 30 pounds. That's fantastic. I weigh less than I have in about 5 years. Again... fantastic. Perhaps I need to take this time for my body to adjust to this weight again. But I'm going to try really hard to back into it and lose some more weight this summer.