Post Reunion Weekend Follow-up

What a blast my weekend was. I had so much fun catching up with my bestest high school friends. I'm the only one that lives close to where we went to school, so my house was our home base. Three of the girls came in on Thursday and stayed with me Thursday and Friday. We caught up with one more of the girls at the Happy Hour on Friday. I got my husband to hang out with us and drive us - I owe him big! Finally, the last of the girlfriends got in Saturday morning and we picked her up at the Metro and headed straight to the picnic at the high school. My husband also brought my kids so they could see where mommy went to school.

We had a tour of the school - it is in desperate need of renovation. It was pretty sad, actually. I'm glad that we now live in an area where my kids go to newer schools. The high school was built in the late 60's and hasn't had much updating done in the past 40 years.

After the picnic, we drove around to everyone's old houses (not even their parents still live in the area). We laughed a lot and told lots of old stories. Then headed to the hotel. We had gotten rooms where the reunion was held, which was a really good move on our part.

The reunion was fun. Caught up with people I never really thought I'd see again. I was fairly comfortable in my dress... and was very glad that I invested in some shapewear!

It was the guys in my class that had changed the most. Some of them I never would have recognized. Many were much balder, grayer and heavier. The girls had gotten older but were much more recognizable.

Now I'm trying to recover. I drank way too much - I can't remember the last time I drank three nights in a row! I didn't eat very well either. But that was to be expected. I'm not going to beat myself up about it.

I HATE SHOPPING

I have less than 24 hours until my high school friends start arriving for the reunion. So I've been a busy little (ha!) girl trying to find something to wear. I've dragged my children around to a number of stores this week. I've bought two dresses, neither of which I love - one found at Lane Bryant (at the third Land Bryant I went to) and one at Macy's. I still might wear something I already have in my closet and just take those back. I've bought shapewear and a new black bra at Kohl's. And I plan to go out to one more mall when my husband gets home from work today.

I'm feeling very bad about myself. I wish I were twenty or thirty pounds lighter than I am. Why couldn't I have succeeded this spring with losing the weight I wanted to lose? I know that my friends will still love me. Although I wonder if they'll talk behind my back about how I've "let myself go." Hmmm... low self esteem, maybe?

Why I don't buy good cereal.

I love cereal. I could eat it for every meal. Which is why I don't buy it - at least not the kinds that I love. I usually buy generic grocery store brands for the kids. They don't seem to mind. I can taste the minor difference, so I don't eat it. Yesterday, we were at Target and they had cereal on sale. I let each kid pick out a box - the oldest picked Frosted Flakes. Which is my favorite. Again, we bought them yesterday. And now the box is gone.

That is why I don't buy good cereal.

A New Start

According to the "rules" at Fabulous N Fit by Fall, I'm supposed to take a photo of my scale. So here you go...



There you go. There's that TWO number again. How depressing. But I'm going to change that - starting today.

I Can Do Better

I completely failed at the 4th of July challenge. Completely failed. I weigh more than I did when I started the challenge. I have not had a productive couple of months. I had hoped to be down quite a bit and instead, I weigh what I did seven months ago. I have to admit to myself that I've gained 10 pounds back from my lowest weight (which was at the beginning of March).

I do believe, however, that I am ready to start again. I have been exercising at a semi-regular basis, but my eating has been in the toilet. I have been craving the most horrible foods and to make matters worse, I have been satisfying those cravings. I know that I need to step it up with my exercising and be better with my eating. I found a new challenge, Fabulous N Fit by Fall. I really hope to succeed at this one.

A Small Pity Party

I got on the scale this morning and saw a number I haven't seen since December... SEVEN months ago. I feel like a huge failure - one that has wasted all this time doing nothing... again. All that holiday partying over the weekend certainly caught up to me. The good news is that instead of heading to the refrigerator, I went out back and walked a mile on the track.

What a weekend

Two parties, lots of fireworks and an endless supply of food and beer. I'm feeling like I need to eat salad and drink water all this week.

My eating has been in the can, but I have been exercising a bit. I'm hoping to get out this evening for a quick walk. There is a school right behind my house so I can always go walk around the track, which is my plan today.

I have been enjoying Sparkpeople. But like WW, I need to be sure to track and I have a problem with that. But at least it's free.

Have you visited The Belly Project? Many of us women are a bit consumed with what people look like under their clothes. The summer leaves far less to the imagination. And here, you can see that you aren't the only one that does not have a perfect mid-section!

Hello Sparkpeople

We all know that the economy is horrible right now. My husband and I are trying hard to watch every penny... especially since we just had to buy a new to us car, which results in a car payment. Because of this, I've decided to give up Weight Watchers. It hasn't really been working for me for the past few months. Which really means, I haven't really been MAKING it work for me. I haven't been keeping track of my points. I feel like I've been flushing the money I've been spending on it down the toilet.

I've decided to try something that is free... sparkpeople.com. I'm hoping it will help me jump start my diet again. I've kept track of my eating for the past two days and have also exercised.

Do you - or have you ever - used sparkpeople? Does it work for you?

All the Chocolate has been Eaten

I'm pretty sure I've eaten all the chocolate in my house. So now it's gone and won't be replaced. My cravings were horrible yesterday. Why can't I have cravings for apples and peaches? Not me... chocolate was all I wanted. And then I felt awful after it was all gone in my belly.

This was not a good eating weekend. We had three parties to go to. Lots of drinking and eating not so good for you foods. I tried to control myself - at least I drank a lot less than I thought I would.

Class reunion is less than five weeks away. I'm not nearly the weight I hoped I would be, but at least I'm not near where I started. And really... who cares. No one is going to not talk to me because I don't look like I did in high school. Most likely, no one will look like they did in high school. I've become reacquainted with a girl I graduated with that lives in my neighborhood. She doesn't seem to care that I'm a bigger girl. In fact, she actually seems to like me and is glad to see me when she does. Two of my bestest girlfriends are coming in and staying at my house - I should probably focus more on cleaning my house and making sure they are comfortable! But... I think I can lose 10 pounds in the next five weeks, so that's what I'm going to focus on.

197???

It's catching up to me. I have not been good about my eating or exercise for the past couple of MONTHS (ugh!) and thus far, I'd been doing okay. Up and down a couple of pounds. But when I got on the scale on Tuesday it showed 197. 197! That's only three pounds from 200 again! And I will not go back to that. So I've been very careful about my eating this week and have been exercising. Bootcamp on Tuesday (which I'm still sore from) and treadmill today. I'm also going to check out a different bootcamp tomorrow. It's closer to my house and a little cheaper, which is always good.

What happened to me losing 20 more pounds before my reunion in July? Now I'm seven weeks away. I guess it's possible for me to lose 20 pounds by then... but probably not probable.