Two cute stories about my cute three year old

So this blog is supposed to be about me and my journey to lose weight. I suppose, though, that my kids are a big part of that journey and in reality, they are a huge reason that I am making it. I want to be healthy for not only me, but them. I don't want them to have a fat mom. I don't want them to be embarassed of me. I want them to look at me and think I'm beautiful. And I want to be there for them as they grow up, perhaps get married and have babies. I want to dance at those weddings and hold my grandbabies.

On to the cute stories...

My hubby took my younger child to soccer practice... as I sat in the car and read while watching my older child at her practice. When she got back in the car, she said "Mommy, we scribbled the boys." She just could not say scrimaged.

And then today, the music teacher from her preschool comes to the same school bus stop as we do. Her teacher said hi to her and she said, "Hi... Music Teacher." Sometime she's so cute I just want to squeeze her!

How can a salad have that many points???

I'm doing fairly well with my WW points. That is, until today at dinner. My beloved is out of town, so I took my kids to Bob Evans. That seems to be our go-to place when Daddy is away. I decided to be good and get a salad. Unfortunately, before we went out, I didn't do research to figure out what I should eat... that's what I usually do. So I got a "savory" (small) sized salad. And when I got home, I looked it up and it was 15 points. Yikes! I also had a roll, which was 4 points. So now I'm quite a bit over my points for the day.



The salad WAS pretty good. It had dried cranberries, bleu cheese and pecans... no wonder it had so many points.

I need to go put the kids to bed and log a little time on the treadmill! Need to get some of those activity points!

Weight Watchers

I've been thinking about going back to Weight Watchers. I was successful with their program 9 or 10 years ago and lost about 35 pounds. The time of the meeting in my area is just not convenient to me, though, and I'd rather not drag the little rugrat with me. I saw a commercial the other day for a free week at weight watchers online. Today I decided to go ahead and sign up for the free week and see how I like it. You can find it at www.weightwatchers.com/free. Then I'll decide if it's something that I want to continue. The online version is a bit less than the in-person program.

So far, so good.

Operation Skinny Bitch

Crap... I just wrote out a long post and blogger ate it. Yikes!

Anyway... I was googling diet blogs yesterday and came across one that was entitled "Operation Skinny Bitch." The title interested me so I looked around it. I decided to add my name and join the quest to become a "skinny bitch." Although I noticed that many of the people on there are looking to lose 10-20 pounds and I'm looking to lose two or three times that amount. But that's okay - we are all striving for the same goal.

Where will I be in a year from now?

What will I look like? What size will I be? How much will I weigh? I do not want to go to my high school reunion as a fatty. I know that I won't be a skinny minny, but I'd like to be in a smaller size. To weigh less than I weigh now... maybe even quite a bit less. I haven't seen many of my high school friends in years. I don't want to be judged by anyone.

I hate being miserable in my own skin. And that's exactly how I'm feeling. So uncomfortable in my own body. This is not the way I was supposed to be. No matter what, a year is going to go by. And I can be happier and more miserable. Which will I choose?

I'm rambling... I can't seem to sort my thoughts out. I don't want to be all talk and no action.

Calorie Counting

A friend of mine has been working to lose weight and has lost 100 pounds in the past year or so. I emailed her and asked if she could share some tips. She said that she's been following the diet from the Biggest Loser books and that really, it's about calorie counting. She said that you should multiply your weight by 7 and that's how many calories you should be eating. Yikes... that's a lot of calories. I do know that you need to eat those calories in order to keep your metabolism up. So I've been trying to mentally keep track of my calories. What I really need to do is write down what I eat. That's one of my short term goals.

You rarely hear about calorie counting any more. You hear about fiber and fat grams and high fructose corn syrup. But it may be as simple as counting calories. Who knew?

I have lost 8 pounds and I saw a number on the scale that I haven't seen in a while. It's not nearly the amount that I'd like to have lost, but it's a start. My wonderful husband has lost about 20 pounds in the same amount of time. That's not fair at all, but it's all about testosterone... yadda, yadda. He has been doing well and running just about every day. So he's definitely exercising more than I am.

Another Wake Up Call

My husband has been working really hard to lose weight lately. And of course, men always lose faster than women. He's lost about twice the amount I have. And he's been running... I cannot run. At least not yet. I just can't stand to feel the fat jiggle. And I would hate for anyone to see me, so I'd have to run in the dark of night, which isn't very safe.

Anyway... my husband is a big guy. He's really tall - which makes him look not quite as heavy as he is. There was a time that he was more than 100 pounds heavier than I was. And I found out today that he's only a little more than 50 pounds heavier than me. How depressed am I?

So even though I didn't really want to, I took a really long, sweaty walk today (fourth one this week). And I avoided buying any cookies at the grocery store today. Even though I was really tempted. Those Oreos that were on sale were calling my name.

It's the small things, right?

I've noticed something lately. After washing my shorts, I don't have to struggle to put them on. I don't have to suck in my breath - they button without any problems. I haven't had to dance around while trying to pull them over my hips - they've slid right on. Sure, they're still a size that I'm not happy about. But at least my fat shorts are fitting!

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

I've been doing a great job with my walking. Yesterday, after I put my oldest on the bus for the first day of school, I took a walk that lasted over an hour with some friends from the neighborhood. It was long. I was tired (I needed a nap). But I felt so good. I'm going to do it again tomorrow. And I know it will get easier.

My eating, though, has not improved. No self control. But I knew that about myself. The program I'm on just started with the nutrition part of it, but I haven't been eating the food that it advises... which is lots of whole grains, fruits and veggies. I need to get on that wagon - it's a much healthier one. One place I've been doing well on is the no soda one. I haven't brought any into the house in weeks and haven't been drinking it out much either.