Where will I be in a year from now?

What will I look like? What size will I be? How much will I weigh? I do not want to go to my high school reunion as a fatty. I know that I won't be a skinny minny, but I'd like to be in a smaller size. To weigh less than I weigh now... maybe even quite a bit less. I haven't seen many of my high school friends in years. I don't want to be judged by anyone.

I hate being miserable in my own skin. And that's exactly how I'm feeling. So uncomfortable in my own body. This is not the way I was supposed to be. No matter what, a year is going to go by. And I can be happier and more miserable. Which will I choose?

I'm rambling... I can't seem to sort my thoughts out. I don't want to be all talk and no action.